Sunday, October 28, 2012

On Flying Ointments

Yes I began to make them , Flying Ointments that is . This summer while away , while I had time to walk my wild walk and really get down & dirty in the bush .
I've been away for so long and have so much to share . After 5 months away and attending the goddess festival this past August . I also began a new business blog The Womb of Willow which I shall post in a new entry soon .
For now here is my latest article on the flying ointments or what I like to call them is journey salve ☺

" What are Flying Ointments ? What do they do ? What are they for ?" These are the questions I most get when people browse over my ointments at the market ☺ Flying ointments are basically a salve made by infusing vegtable oils or animal fats with different plants , herbs and anything really which can aide us in other world/ realm travel. That is the purpose of a flying ointment , specifically to aide us to help us cross over , to help us see, to help guide us , to help protect us .

Flying ointments contain items which will help us also in specific areas such as seeing , protection , healing . Usually used personally but also in group almost always within a ritual with specific intent and purpose . At times it may be to aide us in helping another or the intent is to help us learn for ourselves.

There are many people writing about flying ointments these days . Each person has thier own version of what Traditionally these ointments were , are and should be . Some people claim all flying ointments must contain psychoactive plants . I don't disagree and I'm sure at times these ointments may have occasionally . However I do disagree that all ointments must contain them . This is because being a true animist I believe all plants , animals etc. have purpose and spirit . All are capable of being teacher . So the May Violet is just as important a teacher to me as Belladonna . I for example use eagle Feather in one of my ointments , down of Thistle in another . This is because each has the capabilities of helping us in certain areas of learning , seeing ...

I feel that the purpose of the ointment is to be able to have access to these plants in order to work in a certain area such as healing or protection . The fact is it may be hard to have all these items on hand at one time . Often one plant is to be harvested in spring like Cedar yet another like Tobacco is much later in the season . Also some people may not have access to Eagle Feathers at all so this way in the flying ointment they have that very much real
& live interaction with it through the ointment .

yes I have begun to use and work with the baneful plants . However this does not mean I am called to ever consume them . If I am I will have no doubt walked first with a plant for yrs . For instance I have walked with Wormwood since I was about 4yo . It always has been a very strong plant ally walking with me in great protection . This does not mean I ever consumed it . Not until two yrs ago when I began to pick it for purpose to work with it using it within the home . Then to add to the ointments .The same goes for Balm of Gilead , the buds from the Poplar have been used for healing slaves for generations so that is why I felt totally comfortable using it now within ointments.

I have written mostly on the why people should not use these ointments . I may sell them but I also do not wish for people to go into something blindly , it may end up giving them a flop of a journey and it is also very disrespectful of the teachers within the ointments . I make 3 ointments so far . Yes I have tried them all . That is Basically why I make these 3, I know them closest and know them well .Yes I have tried the Toad !

As I said there are many writings online , even youtube videos now of people making these . I can say they are almost all young people . I'm sorry but as a crone as an elder I observe most of these people have not worked with these plants long enough to use them in this form and several I've heard, seen are youngsters searching for attention and ego boosting . I work with these plants now more intimatly because I am older . When young I was mother I had small children round and about . I also may have not had the patience nor respect yet . Now I am older I do work more closely and use them wisely . I also ask people before purchasing to meditate , pray , walk in silence and see what ointment calls to you . Just as the ointments are our teacher I am too and it would not be wise for me to just let people go blindly into journeying without guiding them wisely .

I reccomend reading Susun Weeds writings on the subject and also Dale Pendell . For more info on psychoactive plants the books by Christian Ratsch are not bad but again I want to restate that not all peoples used psychoactive plants for travel . I know that it is a very common misconception that Aboriginal peoples used these plants for travel and while some tribes did ,many many did not . There is an excellent writeup in Drawing Down the Moon by Margot Adler on the misuse of baneful herbs in prep of making ointments . It is not my intent to frighten or scare one away from ointment use ;-) It is my intent to help people learn to take our nature teachers seriously .Flying Ointments are a wonderful aide /tool for us . I thouroghly enjoy them very much .

If You would like more information on a specific ointment or plant please feel free to write me . 

Saturday, May 19, 2012

Earth day Everyday & Plastic Pagans

I won't deceive you this post is mostly a rant .
Yes I'm so peeved and ticked and disgusted by people who claim to be earth loving , caring for , respectful of mother earth and it is all for show , to appear cool and fit in .
I'm sorry but I've had it with material plastic pagans . I think its even more horrid behaviour than fanatical Christians because its calling oneself pagan to appear to have an image but its all false and used to self indulge . I mean Christians sort of can get off in a way the ones who feel the earth , animals whatever were given for us to take belief system . Most believe we are to be stewards of the earth . however pagans it is their claim that they are one with the earth . it is the base of their religious values , the core .
Yet it is these self serving plastics that are just getting to me . 
This was spurred on by one family who moved to the country claiming to be earth loving and I'm just so disgusted by the behaviour . 
I wrote before about many of the areas in our province we are dealing with dying lakes , forests on fire etc.
We've had the trouble of ATV use here and in particular starting forest fires . 
Now our province has had a ban on ATV use and open fires because of several fires this month . 
 So what does this family do ? why purchase more ATV and go off tearing up the forest as always . 
I mean what more could we expect from people who use plastic flowers to celebrate Beltaine .
But honestly with all the knowledge given lately in our press about the damage done by ATV why on earth would a supposed earth caring person , pagan or not go out and buy more destructive vehicles?
As I said before we are not against ATV use , just like plastic the invention of it and purpose have been exploited and abused by majority . 
Forestry people use ATV to check fire roads and for poaching , farmers use them to check on cattle , crops etc. 
but it is the people who move to the country to sit and watch satellite tv , drink beer , destroy the land that I just can't stand . 
something good has to come out of my rant , yes ? lol 
So re-thinking Earth day everyday I am trying to stick to the positive . To remember our purpose .
I really came to see how proud I am of our kids . Our ds Indigo just took another great course . This one to learn more about wild edibles. I wrote about his learning traditional hide tanning too . We really are trying . My dh wants to work with horses instead of machines , maybe oxen too . 
Our eldest likes to travel , and although I do not fully agree with the whole travel thing due to leaving a huge carbon footprint I am glad she takes Eco travel seriously . 
Our eldest ds Dacotah is gearing up to study both Aboriginal & Environmental studies at University .

We are not perfect and I don't want to give the impression we are . But its when people claim to be what they are not and not even attempting to love the earth that drives me mad . 
So like I said we may not be perfect but we try to make the proper choices to do the less harm we can in regards to caring for natural resources . 
I look at it like this does not belong to us . We need care for it for those who come after us and if each generation would think like that . That we need look after for the next the earth would be in a lot better shape . 

here is Indigo digging cat tail roots & shoots 

his traditional smokehouse 

morel mushrooms 

Friday, May 4, 2012

Non Core Shamanism , Animism Respecting All

As I finished my painting Between Two Worlds in my Shamanic journey the topic of Non core Shamanism & Animism  keeps coming up for me .
it is nothing new I have issue with so called spiritual programs that charge money .that a spiritual healer learns via apprenticeship more often than not . that plastic shaman who sell crystals gathered from raping the land & have big plastic angel statues bought at walmart are not shamans .rather it is all based on ego, being lost & feeling ever so important but at a cost of taking from others .
I know sounds harsh .I'm not a fluffy everything is light & joy person .
I was encouraged to paint the vision I'd had during the Moon Voices in Action gathering for Aboriginal women healing from the generational effects of residential school abuse .
The issue of true Shamanism and what Animism truly is as well. 
The topic of Animism again connected to the abuse of plants , animals , water etc. 
Animism means soul life , truly meaning we believe all creation every little spec has soul & spirit . 
I find a common mistake people make is wanting to give other beings human qualities or characteristics . Just as we like to do it for gods & goddesses .
All species have soul yet all species are unique and have their own identity . all have levels of intelligence , I personally think probably more intelligent then the human species but that is comparing and it conflicts with seeing things as unique beings .
In true Animism we are to treat plant , animal as beings of knowledge and not assume we somehow know the plant better than the plant knowing us . 
To truly know why an animal or plant is calling us to come work with them requires patience & respect . Respect to just keep quiet , calm and wait most of all. 
As a lay folk person I am appalled at the misuse of plants for so called journeying in what is labeled shamanism but it is not . 
True Shamans journey with just the help of plants being able to follow and journey with a plant does not mean consuming the plant .
most people who continuously use so called flying ointments to travel are not truly doing so . 
Plants such as psychoactive ones are rarely used and when they are it is only for specific ceremony and purpose .Often only once or a few times per year .
If one continuously uses plants by consumption then they no longer are aware of if they themselves are journeying with spirit or is it a chemical reaction in the brain .
true Shamans have forms of helping travel such as fasting ,dance, Shake tent , Drums , Rattles , elements .
Another thing a few of us are thinking is these so called witches recipes , where did they come from ? 
If they were written down was the purpose for self use or by chance to distract and lead an enemy to use something that may mess them up ? 
I honestly do not believe any recipes are written down . Why ? Because honestly think about it , Medicine peoples , Cunning Folk were often people living a reclusive life , country folk , wisewoman . People in communities valued their knowledge . And common folk did not read nor write . During the Inquisition there was in fact a printing ban during certain periods . paper was very scarce . would common country wisewomen have paper , ink and pen ? would they know how to write ? 
yes there is chance knowledge was passed down but if so it would've been done orally not by written word . 
Anyway it is my guess the wisewoman of Europe the Shamans etc. worked with plants without the consumption of them in order to travel . 
I see core Shamanism as yet just another thing people lost want to belong , people with big ego get boosted and of course a way to make a big dollar .
My mentor says she never accepts money she teaches for free and it is my duty to now teach . 
this is great affirmation for me because I too have always struggled with the concept of money . 
Bartering is a different story because we all have gifts to share .
 A bit about the painting , it is Black Spruce in our world and the spirit world and the light in between . Black spruce is used to help us enter into the two worlds to connect both . this is often done via placing the resin on the fire . 
So Black Spruce is the tree I use to enter both worlds . The light in between represents balance & peace . 
The staff with feathers represents honour , wisdom respect and the Eagle feathers are a sign from above from  the other world to help us see . 
I'm not sure now what I'll do with the painting , the vision was stuck in my head and I had to get it out into this world . sort of like a shopping list ;-)
so now what ?
Be patient , go on , keep packing for the lake and just go on with life .

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Burial & Banishment

If You read my post on the whole dog incident its no surprise that I tend to work alot in the area of protection .

Most often I find in regards to banishment I've always been called to work with  the element of fire in dealing with getting rid of negative issues .either by way of candles using herbs etc. or having an actual fire .
However lately I've really felt called to use the ritual of burial in my work .

so after my work with the banishing of others was over we went out to our property . 
I took the doll I'd made earlier to represent myself to the spot up on the hill which overlooks the valley & small lake . 

I dug a hole 

and placed myself in the hole so I may become one with this area , oversee our land and begin to build our new home here . 

3 yrs ago I lost my ex to lung cancer . At the time of his death I prayed much and attending his funeral I lined his coffin with cedar & birch bark .
I made this beautiful beeswax candle to honour his memory .

I came to realize this past April that although I did all this it really was for our bio dd 31yo . 
through the last 3 yrs I still had to go through the grieving myself . 
It wasn't til my teacher told me that my ex was still attached to me , our home etc. that I really came to see I needed to put this at rest .
When he passed our dd inherited everything as he had no other living relatives . 
We also came into possession of items that had belonged to his common law partner who had just passed away 2 yrs before him .
One item was a huge chunk of amethyst . 
I have had it in my altar room for the past 3 yrs . However it always gave me a weird vibe . I had cleaned it of all the smoke smell it had collected , set it in moonlight but the thing still did not sit well with me . 
I thought of items I also had of my ex . The biggest the little beater of a Toyota which I love . It gets me around I can zip here and there without using huge amounts of fuel etc. 

that was it I knew what I had to do . 
Now this was not banishment so much as it was a collecting of leftover stuff that needed to be dealt with and a final goodbye . 

so I placed the amethyst in the car 

 I gave it a good smudging . Told my ex thank you for the vehicle ...

then when I went out to my Mums I walked to the sand cliffs .

I chose the spot where the pine look over the lake . 

dug a hole 

took the stone 

and buried it . I know some people might think what a waste , its a huge stone . I really had no use for it and it just never felt like it was mine . 

Now he is settled he has a lovely spiritual view .
Earlier that same week our dd 26 had asked me to come over and bless / cleanse their home . 
I did sweeping , smudging & sprinkling of salt water and oil. Placed salt in all windows and above doors . outside and inside . 
I also placed two rocks in the home the master bedroom & basement . This was to gather any evil that need be banished .

I then drove to Piney forest . Pine is known for great protection .

They are very strong majestic trees growing in soil many plants cannot tolerate . 

again I dug a hole and placed the stones within . 
I encircled the space with salt and put it to rest .

again I trust spirit , that I've been told & shown the what to do and places to visit . 

Between Two Worlds

Between Two Worlds

Black Spruce calls 
invitation comes 
soul companion 
Eagle eyes soar 
Wolf along side 
Sparrow's gentle hop 
snow clean 
no harm here 
awaken Spirit true 
  blood knowledge given 
sacred space  
 two touch 
denials release
skin shed 
destiny always the giver of balance 
   contentment of heart 
between two worlds the gift will come 

Friday, April 27, 2012

Healing & Indigenous Gardening with Deer Spirit

PBP~ Letters H & I 

I've not been writing at all the last month . This is in fact my first post on the new improved blogger .Lol you'd think blogger would not be underlined in spell check on its own website but it is ;-)
I also did not get my H post done for last week . I kept feeling rushed and not ready .
Turns out my post for H & I mesh so well together I can do both in one shot .
Some of my followers are also my friends and know this info but many of you will not have known our ds11 Adventure boy as I call him online had been gradually been getting more and more ill since last spring . well in retrospect we see it began last spring because he began to complain his legs were sore . He no longer wanted to do swimming lessons or running etc. Another parent reminded me of growing pains . Something I'd totally forgot about as our kids who did experience them were children #2 & #4 . so growing pains I thought well it shall pass . 
nope , over summer months he became more and more picky with diet , he also began to lack energy 
Then come late Autumn his hair began to thin . All the time we were thinking diet , I kept trying to add stuff to his diet , take stuff out etc. 
Adventure boy's spirit name is He Who Gives Joy . Well to look at our ds I won't lie it scared me . he had sort of a hollow look .
In about mid Jan. I began praying to Creator and asking about ds . The deer spirit kept coming to me .
Our ds has had a connection with the Deer spirit for a very long time .He has encountered Deer , always large bucks to be exact when out on his own as a young child . He also has a thing with finding antlers . 
I asked my teacher what Deer represent and I had known for sometime Deer represent many things , one thing is the gift of life . So I began praying how can life come back to our ds . Help our ds 's life of joy return . 
Well I have to say this is where I am so very grateful my mother is a nurse .I honestly think had she been born in a different era she'd have been a great Dr. my friends and family always ask my Mum for advice on medical stuff and the one gift she is great at is diagnosis .
 she phoned me to say she really felt it was a hypothyroid issue . So we took him into see the dr. he even thought it was low iron . Nope he called the next day to say ds tested as low thyroid ! Bingo ! 
So You may be wondering how does this tie in to Indigenous gardening . Well it does and it very much is Deer Spirit leading because I am chosing to listen ☺
The same time ds was being diagnosed I just by chance got in to the Grow Local Food conference .
I was so excited because Winona Laduke was speaking and there were many First Nations people attending .
The day I attended it was just me and my friend Mary sitting at a table . A woman decided to join us . well her name is Audrey Logan .I had no idea she was also a presenter at the conference ! Lol we just gabbed I never got to hear her speak . However I did at the next gathering for Aboriginal women at the University . Audrey teaches through story all the history , the how to etc. of Indigenous gardening 
The First time I went out to the garden with Audrey & other Ladies our ds came with me . He still was not quite well yet and it took alot out of him to attend but it was the first warm sunny day in ages it was great for us .
You can read more about Audrey and the Indigenous gardening here at 
if You go on to read Gardening with Deer Spirit
and know how instinctively I have always been teaching Adventure boy how to garden . I just felt , it is a knowing , he is the one . He follows me to go picking rose petals and tree medicines etc.
 he is very small and he knows how to touch softly and walk gentle on the forest floor . 
So Deer Spirit has been guiding me all along to remember who our child is . 
Help to nourish his spirit and also to yes , listen to our Elders . Deer spirit led my Mother to help and led Audrey to encourage me to be the best mentor teacher I can be . 
I've no doubt our ds will grow into an Indigenous gardener  following & learning from Deer spirit 

Deer Spirit always sends him antlers . Antlers are used as planting tools in Indigenous gardening 

we will bless our garden with Deer Spirit this yr.


wild violets


we try and know plants in all seasons 

he also worked with his Dad in a traditional European type garden 

can you see is smile he truly knows plants he feels them , he connects ☺

helping Gramma with Asperagus

he very much wanted to grow his own corn 

soft and gentle spirit 

I am so happy he is well again so we can play again ! 
Thank You Beautiful Deer Spirit Giver of Life 

Thursday, April 12, 2012

PBP Letter H ~ Humour : hearts & dog

PBP Letter H

Yep it happened again , I think I was taking myself far to seriously . Once again trying to control the uncontrollable .
Sometimes we work so hard to pull it off, that perfect spell , that perfect event, that perfect happening , we sort of forget , hey this is life & life is the magic and sometimes shit just happens
At times when life is so hard we are struggling often suffering sometimes we really need a good whack on the noggin or a good kick in the butt or a fall on the face seems to be my preferred method of learning those hard lessons .
and then there are those times when bam in the middle of the heavy when You just are thinking it can't get much worse then this . bam something so off the top happens , You can't help but chuckle & think how this is going to be extremely laughable & a humorous memory for yrs to come .
So I'd been planning a pretty big ritual for sometime I sort of plan things out in my head then go abouts collecting items , making special things etc.
So the last week and half I'd made corn dolls , collected my hair from my hair brush , bought special chicken hearts and went out to our property to collect special plants & trees . All this to get ready then came the putting it all together !
I had my own corn doll to represent myself I braid my hair strands together and wrapped it round the waist .

I then crushed wild rose petals , lavender, rowan and sacred earth .
This was added to special oil & water
I then placed one heart for myself in this mixture

then came the next step , wasps

add in touch me not

rowan & bittersweet



dog piss tobacco ( a last minute add in ) and wormwood

then the haw thorns . these things are strong hard things very good for protection work

I've never attempted this spell before but took the idea from another and added my own plants , dolls etc. to make it my own . The intent is not to harm another but to stop them from harming your person or family members etc. the visual is quite dramatic I know !

so I finished them up

made mine by tying it on with more hair
then I had raffia

and I bound the rams of the dolls together to make a circle

they can all dance away from me & my family !

I then placed them outside in the fire pit .I had laid in a circle wood of willow , hawthorn & pine

I brought out my Kateri doll & Our Lady Mount Carmel candle
my little playmobile owl sits atop the sweetgrass belt on Katri .

We were all ready to go , Sharon the magic cat enjoying the view

I placed my doll  top a wash basin , it was finally ready to go !
then something happened !

Dog dog dog
yep I said dog

I had told my dd I'd watch him while she went out to eat .
I put him out back with our dogs . Lovely weather and all they'd be sure to be okay .
However our dogs at times find this one annoying so I thought I'd go see how they were getting along .
I still did not even think of my ritual prep til I glanced over at the pit . things looked out of place , then it clicked in my brain !

yep even a few had lost their heads !
help what to do !
my heart and the others all were deep inside the belly of this big floppy beast !
Oh no he ate the thorns and all !
have I just killed our dd dog ?
how do I tell her , well your dog just ate a whole batch of chicken hearts , by the way they were soaked in some not so great thing , by the way he gobbled up all the thorns too !
never mind she is going to think her Mum is totally wacked using chicken hearts and thorns in a ritual .
That is when I laughed to myself because I could hear the conversation at family dinners to come " remember the time fritz ate the hearts ! ? what was Mum doing anyway ? "
I got some great advice from my family at CPF on fb and doggie is fine . Didn't even faze him in the least .
so I went on

I by chance had a frozen pig heart so I took a piece off that and mixed it with new herbs for myself
I placed all my pine cones I'll be attaching to my shaman belt round my doll .
when the whole thing was over I bagged her and am burying her on our property up a top the hill over looking all the land ☺
I luckily had some of the mixture still saved to throw on the fire so I soaked the pig heart in that .

Then the fire came

it was a gorgeous fire , my first in the city since Yule .
I saw many dancing figures in the fire as the night went by
as well as a beautiful crone hand

and that was it . I just waited til nothing was left just coals .
It was so peaceful and soothing .
I smile & chuckle and am so happy don't sweat the big stuff and appreciate the little .
I love that big dopey dog I can't help but laugh and be happy when I see him the big goof ball .
In the end my stuff got done but honestly was it that big of a deal if it didn't work out .what did work out was I lightened up , I/we enjoyed the fire and legacy hey if anything I will be remembered as the granny who can make people laugh , with the help of a few of my animal friends ;-)
I also think this is probably the last time I attempt the chicken heart spell !