I mean as adult beings are we not to walk our walk , use our free will , own our sin or poor habits & unhealthy behaviours and receive our graces ?
is it really a calling of God/ Goddess, Creator , Divine asking random people to come onto the internet and tell me an almost 50yo homeschooling mother of 6 beautiful heathens that I'm doing it wrong ? that I'm a bad bad catholic , pagan , heathen & not being a real one . even worse I'm to be grateful now and thank them for their devote holiness be they pagan or christian ? really ? instead of calling the police about the child predator down the street , volunteering at the food bank , driving a senior or seniors to church the grocery , cross the street , reading to the shut in at home . God is asking all these wonderful people to come online and tell me how bad, evil, and wrong we are so I can then come closer to God . Oh that worked !
really honestly when someone says they are praying for my soul .I love it ! I want people to pray for my soul ! however it is not out of real concern or love for another . what it usually means is mine is in such a pathetic state and not even remotely destined for heaven or another land of bliss . they in no way believe that I equally should pray with deep concern and love for their soul because of course they are above the need for prayer in regards to their soul anyway .
really is this what the Divine is asking ? if Lord & Lady asks you or I to pray for someone , do it ! but don't use Creator to make another feel less than , that is abuse and the worst kind using God Goddess as an excuse to harm another . Creator never gave us permission to harm another , never .
so these are experiences I've had & the reasons I just stopped blogging and showing my catholic self , and yet my blended self is who I am I don't believe "they " got it all wrong . I believe there has been proof and truth in all peoples Creator has given and shared . That Krishna connects me to the sacred heart is a part of me , that I work with the Fey and love Momma Mary is me , how I worship . That I use herbs and trees , pray with the full moon . it is who I am . This is my spiritual being , how I try and figure it out . I am right I am wrong . I am a child of the Creator and I am loved . If I have gotten it terribly wrong I trust and believe I'll be open enough to receive that lesson .
it was so strange for me to read on project pagan enough , them bashing a woman who wrote a book on The Christian Witch . I mean is it not her path ? is it not between she and whomever her god is ? but no now here was a pagan saying someone was not pagan enough . and the narrow minded assumption being pagan means a version of popular European paganism catch the wave ! I belong, I'm part of the pack and if you to not conform to the status quoe you are somehow not a pagan .
so I may be with the few but I so so love my blended self
I truly feel if we are online trolling for people to criticize , point out how wrong they are doing it , we are not in union with any type of universal creator we are actually revealing the insecurity within ourselves and really do not have the confidence to know we are loved .
so perhaps the religious bonkheads will take a deeper look and ask themselves why do I need make another feel worthless , unworthy , less than and try to instill guilt in order for my own self to have a feeling of elation ?
enough said , I'm off to prepare my walk , collect my moose skins to begin my sewing my sacred outfit .